Some Thoughts on Love

Sometimes, I talk to myself. Okay, I do it a lot. To be honest, that's where a lot of what I write comes from - conversations with myself inside of my head. That's pretty normal... Right? Haha.

Well, anyway...

I have been thinking quite a bit about relationships, singleness, and such lately. A large part of the reason for this is the exponential increase in the number of my friends who are beginning to date/marry. It can be hard at times to still be single (I know I am only 18, but my life plan involved being in a serious relationship by now. Who knew the plans you make when you're 10 don't turn out how you wanted... Haha) but I'm also very thankful for where I am at in life right now. 

Anyhow, I ended up giving myself a decently long speech (all in my head, of course) about what I want my heart and relationships to look like and how to get there. 

I thought I would share it with you:

Keep reminding yourself, darling.
Your heart is worthy of love.
Don’t throw yourself at the first man who seems to notice.
But of course, that does not mean to take no action at all.
Work on becoming.
Rather than waiting for someone to find you worthy, realize that everyone is.
Everyone is worthy of love.
Let it be your goal to show them that.
What can you change?
How does one become more lovable?
First realize that you are loved by the one who is love.
He created love.
Love is who he is and what he does.
You can in no way make yourself more worthy.
But you can draw near to him.
Let him change you.
It is a beautiful process.
To be held by the hands that are themselves love.
You cannot help but let it seep into you.
Like a gentle, old grandfather carving wood.
He sees what it is meant to be.
Then he whittles, sands, and rubs it until it is smooth and soft.
The one who is love transforms and heals.
He knows what you are meant to be and what keeps you from becoming.
He does not change who you are, as the carver does not change wood to clay.
He transforms, so that the beauty that is inside can be seen by all.
So let your focus be on becoming.
Don’t worry, many will see it.
But let the one who wins that beautiful heart be good.
Let him be only one who will let the heart stay in the hands of the one who is love.